Din write blog for days..
Tired since Saturday.
Sunday went to PC fair with my bf.
Night, went to rehearse dance. was a full dress rehearsal.
Monday morning, went to sungai wang bought something for performance use.
Night, went to dance rehearsal.
Sleep late every night and woke up early in the morning..
Din sleep enoughly, din sleep more than 7 hours...
thats y tired, sleepy...

and now, i still sleepy..eventhough i woke up late this morning...
ZZzzzZZZzZZZzzzZzZzzzzz....

“我爱你。”
“我越来越爱你。我以前可以不要你，但是现在不得没有你。我真地爱上你了。你不要离开我。我真得不得没有你。”

(Jared PCS: 4 April morning)

This is what he said to me.
It was the first time i heard him to say like that to me.
and this is the first time that a guy say like that to me.
he seems so serious to say those words.
i was so happy to hear that and was touched.
at the same time, i afraid that he just simply say say and play play..
but i take his words serious.

Dear, i wont leave you. i love you too.

Dear lord Jesus, if he is the one you prepare for me, please give me patience and i wanna lend him to you. God, i knew that u love him too. Please take care of him no matter where is him. Please God lead him and guide him and let him have faith on you. Besides, let him know that you are always with him in every single moment. Lord, maybe it needs a very long time, but dear lord give me patience n love for him. And i hope that 1 day he will understand the reason i lend him to you. Thanks lord Jesus hear my prayer, Amen.

The busy, compact and stressful days finished, FINALLY!
'Contact' the contemporary dance performance has done, thesis has done and already went to bind. The tense release slowly. Now, just waiting for the submission on Friday. These days, i had learn and experienced a lot of things.

During the thesis writing period, i need to go for dance practice and rehearse as well - 'Contact' performance (21 & 22 April) and 'Prince Siddhartha Musical' which held on May. Especially the dance practice n rehearse for the 'Contact', it takes nearly 1 semester to done it. Once the performance had over, there were only 18 days for me to complete my whole thesis. I have to complete it in 10 days because i need to submit the draft to my supervisor, then need to do correction n after tht, thesis binding. that why the time was very very packed.

Last week, my lecturer asked me "Did your bf come to see the 'Contact' performance?" I said no because he need to back to his hometown 'clean the graves'. My lecturer ask 'it takes 2 days to clean. got 2 days, he cannot come back on Sunday n watch u perform??' I keep silent for a while n think, maybe he do it on Sunday so he cant back on time. But there was a show on Saturday night! I find excuse for myself if he back after my performance, it might be very late to reach his hometown. Then, i told my teacher that he got see my other performance like PTUM, choir and the coming soon performance-Prince Siddhartha Musical. My lecturer ask me again 'Were they meaningful to you?' I think and rethink. I keep silent again and just smile with the lecturer.

Frankly, this 'Contact' was a very meaningful performance to me. Most of the audience were touched by it. It talks about the first day we enter UM dance department until the day we submit our thesis n graduate. All of us cry after the last show, because we really appreciate to each other although we do not satisfy to each other sometimes. We did experience lots of difficulties and we knew that we love each other so much especially in this last semester. I really hope that he come to watch me, but he has chosen his family. I don wanna force him n make him feel uncomfortable, maybe he has his own burden too. I din blame him, din press him. because i love him.

Now, everything has pass. I had learn to understand and to accept...

Went to Kampar this 2 days.
Happy but nervous of my thesis at the same time.
I did not think about my thesis this few days.
I just keep doing German revision because,
there will be an oral test on this coming Wednesday.
I received an email from my supervisor.
He said that he red my thesis draft..he also ask me to meet him tmr. Thts all.
Nervous, nervous, NERVOUS!!!
Worry that my thesis content got problem.
Dono wht will my supervisor say tmr.
Hopefully there's not much correction.

Difficult to do a thesis..esp in dance field...

Prepare Pancake as my breakfast.
Still remember that at the first time I did in bf hse, some of it were a bit 'hangus'. If not mistaken, today is the 3rd or 4th time i do the Pancake (In KL, bf hse). Improve a lot!

The person tht i wanna thank is my mom.
In my memory, i started to hv pancake as my breakfast is around 5 years old. When i was still in primary, she already taught me to cook because i love to eat it. But, i din make it by myself n always ask mom to prepared for me b4 i went to school in the morning.
one day (studying secondary school), i came back from school.
i was so hungry although i had my lunch upstairs (grandma hse).
after made it, i ate. GOSH!! why so hard to eat! I phone to mom and ask is it the flour problem? why the flour seems not evenly stir..and i told her wht flour i used.. Apparently the flour tht i use is not suitable.
Luckily i did that mistake, if not i really dono there're lots of different typs of flour...
now, is my turn to cook it n serve to other ppl. last time, i make it to my bf, but he don like to eat.
just one time a little bit 'hangus' ma, then he don wan to eat anymore. >_<
since then, i only make it for myself.

Finally, I'd already submit the thesis draft.
At least, won't worry too much.
What I'm worrying now is the correction of the draft.
Worry that there're too much to correct.

Countdown:

Binding - 5 days
Submit - 8 days

3rd German exam only get 22.5 out of 30. SO BAD!!
Disappointed with it. It does not caused me to despair...
But it give me more ENERGY AND SPIRIT to study and understand it for my final!!
Next Wednesday will be the oral test. I must practice hard hard before the oral test.

One of my course mate ask me to send my thesis chapter 3 to her.
I'm sorry that i can't help you.
All i can do is to send you the theory information but not my chapter 3.

At night, gastric not feeling well.
Asked my room mate to "da bao" for me.
no appetite......

Have to rush my chapter 5 tonight!
Can't wait to submit my thesis..
Wanted to do many many many many things after the submission.