left 2 days 3 shows...
tht means i will get money soon!!!
YEAH!!

Frankly, didn't learn anything new in this performance..
but, get to know lots of new friends..
most of them are not 'simple' but they are funny..

strange, although we've been or work together around 6 months..
but i don have any 'heavy' feelings to them..
am i cruel? sorry guys =P

oh! it's friday!
still got 3 days 4 shows to go..
i miss my bf so much..
miss the moment we talk together..
is he going to wait me back tonight?

haih~ because of this performance, my daily routine become abnormal.
b4 this, i woke up early in the morning, around 8 am.
but in this 2 weeks, i woke up at 10am, the earliest!!
hopefully i can get back my normal life after this show..

oh..! tired..
today reached home quite late..almost 2am only back to hse.
it is now 2.35am 22 May. i just finish my bath..
While im waiting for my hairs to dry, i would like to jot down somethings abt today rehearsal.
the rehearse progression quite gd.. but many things hv to 'clean up and tidy up',
such as the dance marking, actor marking, props marking, sound cues, technical ques, crews' alert...
and much much more..
i can see tht many crews are still confusing abt their workss..
but i believe tht after today's experience, they will be more familiar with the run.
actor, i do think tht they did a very gd job. keep going =)
dancers, many things had change due to the spacing...
but i did try my very best to perform =)
for the next 11 performances, i believe tht i can master it well.
Dear me, JIA YO!

very thanks to my dearly bf,
cus he willing to help me to soaked my terrible smelly socks into water..
i got no time to chat with u and see u this week.
cuz when i wake up, u go to work dy..
then when u back from work, i went out dy since morning and late night only back home.
when i back home, u sleep dy..
if u found tht got tons of clothes din wash, u help me wash ok =)
gd night dear. weet dream.

dear lord Jesus, please gv me energy and healthy body to perform this coming 11 performances.
dear lord, thanks for taking care of me in every moment no matter where i am.
thanks lord YOU hear your child prayer. In Jesus name i pray. Amen.

Had a wonderful nice dinner with my bf at a restaurant named 'Just Dessert' @ The Curve.














































































Actually, I get to eat a lot of delicious food with my bf every month..

My 23th Birthday Celebration at Tony's Roma @ The Curve




































































2008 Christmas Celebration at Italiennies @ The Curve


































































2009 April PC Fair @ KLCC






























BF Year 2008 23th birthday celebration at Kenny Rogers












Had a drink with dear at 1U last Saturday..

































See, my bf treat me so nice..
i always told him dont go expensive place
but he still bring me go to eat expensive things..

he asked me to cook pan cake and said he will eat.
Ok, i cooked.
Purposely ask him 'wanna eat?'
'nvm, u eat la!'
hot hot mood pour by cold water again~
ok..i wait..
4 piece of pan cake.
i eat..i taste..mmMMmmMmm. nice.
finished 1..left 3 pieces..he havent come out..
eat again..left 2 pieces..havent come out..
eat again..left 1 piece..havent come out..
i use the fork to cut it into smaller pieces..
eat again..3/4 piece..havent come out..
1/2 pice..havent come out..
the very last piece.. fine..don ever ask again..
super duper damn DISAPPOINTED.

to all ladies~ don ever over cooked ur first trial dish to ur love one.
if not, they would not eat ur meal for the rest of their life..

but GOD is so amazing..when u are down,
HE always reminds you to not feel down through many ways.
i read a very short yet meaningful sentence in a newpaper.
it reminds me to not be so stubborn..
ok~ i force myself to change my mind as fast as i could..

thanks GOD.
i suddenly think of a sentence that i learn b4..
'blame lesser, praise more!'

It's Friday! For some of the workers, congrats cuz u have finaly come to the end of the working day. For those who start to work soon, congrats cuz u found a job and make sure to enjoy the holidays as crazy as you can...for those who not working and still looking for jobs, gd luck to u all and may god bless u.

How abt me? I dono whether im now working or ..??
I have a performance which is soon going to be held at IB from 22 till 31 May.
There are 11 performances and only rest 1 day (25th May).
Im paid in tht performance..
but after it, i will be free but still got something to do..
wht to do? looking for a job..
So~ am i working now? i dono...
May God bless me too..and i believe HE will prepare the best for me.

I dont really know should i keep searching for a job or just wait the performance done then only find?? i dono.. If i find now, and called to interview, most probably i will not free cuz i need to bum in to the theatre start from next week until the show end.
hmm... i think i hv to list down wht i want first, then only make the further step after finish the performance..

This few days, i keep thinking of how to live with my bf.
I wanna live with him..try to lighten his work (hsework).
Clean his room, iron his clothes, wash clothes (today i wanted to but there are lots of clothes still hanging there) wash toilet, and cook if possible.......
chat with him and play with him to let him free from the working stress for a moment...
i knew that he is tired after working for the whole day..
i dono wht can i do to him beside theseee.
I feel tht im doing the right things but am i doing things right??
Sometimes i feel that he need a silent moment..but i want him to kacau me, talk with me, care of me and play with me...

Some couples can live together but some not..
Which category should i belong to?
Im suitable for the first category but maybe my partner suitable for the second category...
I think i just only can stay here temporary..
Should I move out as soon as possible?
Im waiting for an answer but the answer is not appear.
Maybe i should move out to learn something that i need to learn..

Actually i got many things to tell him, to let him know..but..
i afraid that when i tell him abt my thinking, he will turn his mood..
besides, i afraid my thinking will affect him..
i don wan to be like this..i know he is tired from working and i don wan him to have the pressure at home too...
therefore, i rather just keep my thinking, my question in my heart.....

Why am i so many things to think ah??

today i help my bf to clean his room..
clean for the whole day..
start from 11am..and stop at 6pmcuz seon back from work
and he ask me to go out eat..
still have somethings havent tidy up..
tmr will be continue..
during the cleaning, i captured some hidden place which is full of thick thick dust..

BEFORE















AFTER



















well..still got some things havent tidy..
continue tmr..

Went to Penang with my bf to attend super duper seniors wedding.
My bf must be very very tired after driving here and there..
Dear, yes..i got a little bad mood but i got no energy to talk or play with u..cuz i'm too tired..
and i knew that u were more tired than me..
knowing tht u would sleep earlier tonight..
have a nice sweet dream dear..
love u.

packing my things while playing facebook scrabble.
hmm.. lots of small small things to pack..
dono how to settle them..
keep throwing n throwing..still lots of small things..

yesterday go swimming pool play water..
lots of fun..
stil wanna go again..
dear, bring me go swimming la~

Im so incompetent..
Im so useless.. to him..
apparently..

I wanna try to cook by myself..
he said don waste ur energy.
the heart broke..argh....
he always say think by urself, make desicionby urself...this n tht..
when i wanna try something, decided to do something..
he will pour me cold water!!!!
wht should i do? wht can i do??
i really dono..

yes , i always not in the reality..
always dream dream dream......
always in the dreammm world..
my mind, my thinking is like this 'fejfhkh&Y&^$#&*@fbjxgdkjhdagrw'
very confuse and no direction.

Plan to go swimming with my course mate today.
Once i reach there, it close..due to the meeting of the kakitangan there..
hai~ 4th time we go there and back with nothing.
At the first time, we went there, but it close due to the rain and thunder storm.
2nd time, we went there and it close because we dono the schedule and reach there late..
3rd time, we plan to there but lecturer need our help to move his hsehold.
hai~

today, i'm so gd girl. I help my bf to iron his work attires.
then, i wash all his dirty clothes..
and help him to throw rubbish..
see, so gd girl.

wht is shocking me is, my bf's cousin, esther..
she wrote abt me in her blog.
I was so touching..
although I knew and read those prayer before..
but im so thankful that she care of me.
thanks god to let me know abt her and
thanks god tht i get to know this cuttie sister in christ, Esther.

almost a week din blog...
as usual.. got function then practice, practice, practice..
quite free this few days..
thinking of going shopping..
but no one accompany me..

hmm.. monday i have to back college and pack all my things,
have to check out coll on sunday 10 May,
coll only allow us to stay till sunday..
my darling said he will on leave on friday to help me move all those things..
but i think my things not tht much la..
dear, u no need to on leave la..30 minuts boleh 'gao dim' one..